After Rachel and I separation, she made it impossible for me to be a part of their lives. She knew how to manipulate the legal system, all the while, telling everyone that I abandoned the family.

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After years of heartbreak and depression, I stopped trying to communicate with my kids so long as Rachel forced her way between us. I decided I would try to reconnect when they were old enough to talk to me without her. 

 

As of now, they're old enough, but I can't reach them online. My guess is that their mother censors media access with them like she did with me.

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But if Landen and Halliemae ever happen to stumble upon this page, I would love to talk with you. I'd love to tell you that I never stopped loving you and I think about you, literally, every day.